For the first time in over 6 months, I went somewhere all by myself tonight. I got to drive the car (which I’ve only done 3 times in the past 6 months), walk in the rain, and not have to be ever conscious about what Drew is doing.
I met some girlfriends (some I knew and some were new faces) from Engage at Panera Bread tonight. It was really nice to know that Daniel was taking care of Drew (they made french toast and had a little too much syrup in my humble opinion – Drew greeted me with HI MOMMY LA LA LA LA HI MOMMY WHEEEEEEEE) and they were building towers with blocks.
It’s still really hard for me to get close to anyone and believe me, there has been quite a lot of opportunities for me to get to know folks around here. I’ve just turned into such an introvert and I’m so wary of opening my heart to anyone.
And that has not helped my stir-crazy-ness. At all.
After eating a late dinner, I left Panera and headed to Wal-Mart. I parked far away and walked in the rain and cried because it felt so good to be out of the house, and by myself.
🙂 I so understand how you feel about letting people in.
Walking in the rain should be prescribed like medicine. It does wonders for the soul.
That WOULD be good medicine. I wonder why rain is so calming.