Archive for October, 2002

scrambling about in the south.

Monday, October 28th, 2002

This group project has been exceptionally bothersome. I was in the midst of printing it this evening when my printer got an attitude. Every other page didn’t have pictures! I tried everything I could think of to fix the problem but it was to no avail. I eventually just gave into chance and printed each page and hoped for the best. I used up over 30 pages just trying to get the pictures to print. Stupid printer.

I eventually shoved it all into a nice blue folder and sped off to Mailboxes, Etc to get it bound. I was sitting at the West End School intersection when a nice white truck just crashed right into a telephone poll. I’m not sure if he was having physical problems or if he was drunk but he just started swerving and rammed that baby right into the poll. Those cute little tiny traffic lights began flailing and then all of them came flying to the ground and crashed. They are huge up close. I mean…huge. Glass was everywhere and I’m about 2 miles from Mailboxes, Etc and I have 30 minutes before they close. I called 911 for the 2nd time in my life and then did a quick u-turn.

If you live in the area then you know my predicament. The Cherith Ridge Drive is a dead end street and traffic was blocked on Hwy 8. So, I went down Cherith Ridge and cut through someone’s drive way to Hwy 8. I finally pulled up to Mailboxes, Etc and rushed to the counter.

Ms. I’m-a-Redneck-and-Proud-of-it was chewing her gum and flipping her hair when I landed at the counter. She obviously had never done any binding before and I prayed 1, 935 prayers while watching her bind it. I had no other printed copy of my project and I wouldn’t be able to print another out and make it back through the horrid traffic if she messed up.

She proudly held it up to me and asked me if it was “alriiiight.” Yes. Fine. Whatever. Give it to me. I asked her if I should make the check out to Mailboxes and she informed me that I needed to write “Maaaalboxes comma eeee teeee ceeee.” She was quite helpful.

grab n’ go.

Monday, October 28th, 2002

My relationship with God is often a quick grab n’ go.

I open my eyes and occasionally I remember that the God of this universe created me, sustains me, loves me and I then thank Him and roll out of bed and head for the shower. We then meet over breakfast again. I pop the lid to my SoBe Love Bug Brew, stir my grits and thank Him for the blessing of food. I go through my day and traipse through life until we meet again around noon. Oh, it’s lunchtime. Excuse me while I pray and tell the Lord I’m so glad He provided this #1 Chick-Fil-A combo. I might remember him during a chapel session while in school. The hymns and music might tend to warm my heart if I’m in a good mood and the messages will either bore me or I’ll nod a bit. I will continue through my evening and often I’ll hit the sack and forget to talk to Him once more.

All of that to say…I’m realizing He wants a relationship with me. A relationship is walking through my day with me. Not just a breakfast hello and a mealtime greeting.

As someone pointed out to me today…I’ve been saved for a very long time and I’m just now getting these basics down.

“For millions of Christians…God is no more real than He is to the non-Christian. They go through life trying to love an ideal and be loyal to a mere principle….A loving Personality dominates the Bible, walking among the trees of the garden and breathing fragrance over every scene. Always a living Person is present, speaking, pleading, loving, working, and manifesting Himself whenever and wherever His people have the receptivity necessary to receive the manifestation.

It remains for us to think on [these truths] and pray over them until they begin to glow in us.

If we cooperate with Him in loving obedience, God will manifest Himself to us, and that manifestation will be the difference between a nominal Christian life and a life radiant with the light of His face.”

– A. W. Tozer

the greater gain.

Monday, October 28th, 2002

I will not doubt, though all my ships at sea
Come drifting home with broken masts and sails;

I will believe the hand which never fails,

From seeming evil worketh good for me.

And though I weep because those sails are tattered,
Still will I cry, while my best hopes lie shattered:
“I trust in Thee.”

I will not doubt, though sorrows fall like rain,

And troubles swarm like bees about a hive.

I will believe the heights for which I strive
Are only reached by anguish and by pain;
And though I groan and writhe beneath my crosses,
I yet shall see through my severest losses

The greater gain.

-Unknown

three things i’m thankful for.

Monday, October 28th, 2002

1. Bath and Body Works coupons that came in the mail today
2. My new Sponge Bob Square Pants coloring book

3. Jenn T and I are going to talk after my Bible study

stupid pms.

Monday, October 28th, 2002

In a world where few hearts survive,
I brush aside the tears,
Put on my smile and brightened eyes,
And hide behind the fears.