octolilly [through the years]

Once again, a heart was offered
But stumbling caused more pain
I ache to reach a point of rest
Where lessons will have gain

I’ve spent a large portion of this evening rearranging my music files. The discovery of once familiar songs has left me giddy.

There was a moment when I had to simply put the laptop down, turn on the lamps, and lay on the couch and listen.

I Hear Music by Allen Asbury was a song that I re-discovered tonight. And after the finding, it’s been on repeat most of the evening.

Waves of peace are washing over me, Your tenderness unspeakably sweet. I am singing, deep within me.

Between the very British lunch with Lea and Fritz, the fascinating drama of corporate investigations, and the amazingly scary pigeons that nearly attacked me- I’m finding Head Teller Training to be a tad bit more exciting that previously thought. [Sidenote: I think this is the first time that the Elite Travel Team Members have been together for so long]

And, I’m still waiting on that specific phone call. Trying not to get my hopes up. But it’s hard not to.

The realization that NaNoWriMo is simply days away seriously freaks me out a bit. And yes, I realize that I completely skipped A-Z. Life is just overwhelming right now. Perhaps it will all get back to normal soon.

I can’t stop smiling.

Tomorrow is still full of questions, The Wait is once again a bitter enemy, and my Wonder is large and bold tonight. But my smile won’t stop.

Is the smile because the scrambled eggs taste so good? Because it’s fun to feel the carpet with my bare toes? Because hope and desire are mingling a bit more lately? Because the piano music keeps lingering through my house?

I don’t know.