Archive for December, 2011

she was stuck in pictures.

Sunday, December 4th, 2011

In the movie version of your life, which actor/actress would play you and the significant players in your life? What kind of movie is it (e.g., made-for-TV, action, emo/indie, etc.)? What would be the major plot points, and how will it end? – Emily

celebrity

I don’t think I have an exact celebrity look-a-like but when Portia de Rossi has a bit more meat on her bones, I can see a bit of resemblance. It’s probably the nose. And the laugh lines. Certainly not the squishy or the height. But, I adore her and would love for her to play me in the movie version of my life.

The significant players in my life would obviously be Daniel and Drew. Daniel favors Pierce Brosnan (but he has Hugh Grant’s eyes) and Drew, well, he’s four. I have no idea who would play him.

I’m not really sure that my life would be that exciting of a movie. There have been parts that were dramatic, salacious, and intriguing but there have been plenty of days as boring as the drip from the kitchen sink. So, maybe a made-for-TV about learning to be authentic but I’ll hope for a cult-like following.

The major plot points would be:

~ Growing up in the South and loving every minute of it. Life in The Valley. Loving parents, friends, and lots of fried okra. Also, Portia would need to start putting on weight after college. Bless her heart.

~ A few years of Wandering after college. Insert salacious details here. There also needs to be a slow motion scene of me falling down the stairs wearing high heels. While watching myself in the mirror.

~ Falling in love with a boy far away. Romance in airports, luggage tags in scrapbooks, and listening to him play the piano over the phone. And a deliciously steamy scene in the parking garage at BWI.

~ A new baby. Post-partum blues. Oh, look! The blues turned into HORRIBLE BLACK CLOUDS OF DOOM. The film turns to black and white here (Danny Elfman soundtrack) and my happy go lucky days seem to be gone.

~ More years of Wandering. Incredibly dark days of mourning my faith. Slowly feeling freedom. Clarity happening as time passes.

~ Finally feeling at home. Peace. (The film passes me at this point.) Mental and physical health attained. And then I wake up and realize it’s all been a dream. Ah ha, just kidding. I hate those movies.

And lastly, this song would HAVE to be in the movie:

Oh solemn soul see where you are

And look to the sides what you discard

Press your lips to mine, breathe in deep and lie

When the cameras roll, hide away your soul

Flash your eyes, forge a smile, entertain

But don’t get stuck in something you hate

All movie-jokes aside, I hope my REAL life echoes authenticity and learning to live the life that I’m worth.

I’m taking part in a blogging group called Reverb Broads that will be suggesting daily blogging prompts this December. If you want to join in, feel free! Go here or here to learn more.

true love.

Sunday, December 4th, 2011

"true love" - 4/25

In the midst of a day of errand-running and puddle-splashing, Drew found a cozy spot and clung to it.

candy cane delivery.

Saturday, December 3rd, 2011

"candy cane delivery" - 3/25

We brought Daniel’s thirty-year-old Legos back with us from Baltimore and OH THE FUN WE ARE HAVING. Also, we bought candy canes tonight.

No, my fingers aren’t sticky.

peter pan reality.

Saturday, December 3rd, 2011

“How did you become more of a grown-up this year? Or did you pull a Peter Pan and stubbornly remain childlike?” – Bethany

Even though I spent a considerable amount of time photographing Lego’s this evening, I would say that I’ve possibly become more of a grown-up this year. Possibly.

In April, I rushed towards thirty with my arms wide open. A few people cautioned me, sagely, that I’d hit a rockbottom moment where thirty felt like eighty. But it didn’t. I felt freedom from my twenties (which were a swirled bit of poo in my humble opinion) and ALIVE.

Slowly, but surely, I see a wide open horizon ahead where I can change the things about me that bug me to no end. I have a list. Don’t we all? It’s as though for the majority of my life I’ve felt as though I am in a pattern that I can’t escape. But now, magically, I feel encouraged that Things Will Change.

When you grow up you tend to get told that the world is the way it is and your life is just to live your life inside the world, try not to bash into the walls too much, try to have a nice family, have fun, save a little money. That’s a very limited life. Life can be much broader, once you discover one simple fact, and that is that everything around you that you call life was made up by people that were no smarter than you. And you can change it, you can influence it, you can build your own things that other people can use. Once you learn that, you’ll never be the same again.” – Steve Jobs

Although I’m not out to build a piece of technology to change the world, I am seeing that I don’t have to settle for normal.

I have goals. I have dreams. I can still reach them. And it doesn’t hurt to add a bit of childlike fun to the mix.

This means sparkly rainbow barrettes, Lisa Frank stickers, and Legos. Obviously.

I’m taking part in a blogging group called Reverb Broads that will be suggesting daily blogging prompts this December. If you want to join in, feel free! Go here or here to learn more.

snowman jammies.

Friday, December 2nd, 2011

"snowman jammies" - 2/25

Drew got these pajamas for LAST Christmas and they are still way too long. He’s been flopping about in them with the grace of a giraffe on skates. Ha! Skates. Perhaps the lack of grace on skates runs in the family.

I’ve rolled the legs up a bit so he can “drive around” without face planting but when I asked him to lay down for a picture he said “watch me pull them up on my tummy and look weird!” And that was helpful because they look normal for once.