octolilly [through the years]

Talking with someone online is rather difficult. It’s so easy to read into what they type. How do I know if they really mean that? What if that smiley was sarcastic? I’m just too dang sensitive. Perhaps I need to stop chatting so much.

There are fears that bury themselves in the well-hidden heart and worries that bring a frown. The little voice says that it will never work sings in harmony with history’s failures that scream loudly. But if you choose to close your eyes and let go- you might lose everything you hoped to have.

Is there a certain ebb and flow of risk in a friendship? Does the risk grow the more you know someone? Or is it chancier in the beginning? Does it change with time?

My heart is doing that weird thing again. 🙁

Maybe it’s silly to admit that I want to cry tonight.  

If you have any pictures of me wearing striped toe socks, please burn them. Thank you.