thanksgiving in baltimore.

November 29th, 2011

We just spent a few days in Maryland where we celebrated Thanksgiving with our family. Other than Drew being sick for the majority of the time, it was a good trip. I hadn’t seen most of the Bergey’s in over a year and I also got to visit with Miss Dottie, Trish, and Uncle Bob & Aunt Glenna. We enjoyed food, shopping, toys, games, raking leaves, and horsing around.

It felt really weird to drive away knowing that it’s very likely that will be the last time we celebrate a family gathering in Baltimore. Daniel’s parents are probably moving in the next few months so who knows where the next Bergey party will be. With Tim and Dani in Missouri, Ben in college in West Virginia, us in Michigan, and Steve and Cassidy in Maryland – I see a lot of travel ahead. Not that we mind!

Over the holiday, Daniel also took the opportunity to sort through years worth of computer equipment, toys, and nostalgia from his parent’s home. We brought back a box FULL of thirty-year-old legos in great condition and as you might imagine, Drew has been creating with them ever since we got home.

Now we’re on that inevitable holiday slide where time passes so quickly and before you know it, you’re taking down the Christmas tree. But I’m trying really hard to soak up the Christmas music, holiday planning, and hall-decking because this really is my favorite time of the year.

grocery shopping day.

November 12th, 2011

Grocery shopping day!

We waltz into the store feeling on top of the world. A bit of flirting with Daniel, loads of sweet patience with my ever-wiggly Drew, and no, I can’t stop smelling the peaches. They are just THAT GOOD.

Aisle 5:

I’M ABOUT TO DRAG DREW OUT OF THIS STORE BY HIS HAIR. AND IF DANIEL FREAKS OUT ABOUT THE GROCERIES NOT BEING IN THE RIGHT “ORDER” ONE MORE TIME I AM GOING TO START FLAILING. THE FLAILING THAT INVOLVES SITTING IN THE MIDDLE OF THE AISLE AND EATING CHOCOLATE AND CRYING. I HATE EVERYONE. YES I WILL FROWN AT YOU LITTLE OLD LADY. GET OUT OF MY WAY PEOPLE. STUPID GROCERIES. LET’S JUST EAT BREAD ALL WEEK! STOP SAYING THAT I SEEM GRUMPY.

Aisle 7:

Tiny apologies. Awkwardly hunting for the right kind of cheese. Still feeling fussy. Swallowing pride. Another tiny apology.

Checkout:

OH NO. WE AREN’T PUTTING THE GROCERIES ON THE CONVEYOR BELT IN THE RIGHT ORDER. DANIEL IS FREAKING OUT. DREW IS TRYING TO TALK TO EVERYONE ABOUT EVERYTHING. STRANGER DANGER! TRY TO APPEAR NORMAL TO THE CASHIER. I’M NOT CRYING. MY EYES JUST FEEL WATERY.

The ride home:

Tiny apologies. A few snuggles. Holding hands. Deep breaths.

up and down.

November 11th, 2011

Up: It snowed for the longest time yesterday. Thick, beautiful flakes. I know that snow will be a four letter word by the middle of February (it just becomes piles of nasty muck around here) but I’m still a southern girl who still gets a tiny high from it all.

Down: The pain in my jaw is becoming more severe. Headaches, ear-aches, and a clicking sound all make me think I have TMJ. Sigh.

Up: Going to bed at 8:30pm. This probably means I’m getting old but if I can have at least ONE of these evenings each week, I feel like I can climb a mountain.

Down: Our car has been in the garage all week. It should be healed today. I hope.

Up: I’ve had my nose in a book all week. All week! That’s very rare. There’s been no skimming nonsense because it’s just SO GOOD.

Down: People who piously shun social networks because it doesn’t feel like “real” friendship and then turn into complete jerks when hanging out in “real life.”

Up: I’ve been working on The Christmas Lists this week. Shopping blogs, catalogues, pinterest, and lots of drooling. I know some people who just hate this time of year because the hustle and bustle can get out of hand but I LOVE IT. And I can honestly say the best part is just planning and creating gifts for the people I love.

Down: Drew wants a pet. He keeps making suggestions and our eyes just get wider. A dog? But, but, dogs jump around. You never know where they are going to land or what they are going to do. And cats? I’m allergic. A FROG? Seriously? How about a fish? “Can I play with it in my bath each night?” Maybe not a fish. How about Sims 3 Pets? Or we could just look at other people’s pets!

Up: The Ann Arbor 2011 Holiday Event Planner & Guide! I love that Drew is at the age where he absolutely comprehends everything going on around him. He understands the holidays and gets excited about it all even if he has to hide behind me while being excited (i.e. trick or treating). I hope we do a lot of fun things over the next two months. I love making memories.

Down: I’m still having nightmares about driving. Weirdly, it gets worse when I’m eating healthy and losing weight. And if I actually have to drive anywhere, ugh. Panic attacks unless it’s a few minutes from where we live. I’m starting to self sabotage my plans for eating well. Having nightmares? No problem! Eat more ice cream!

Up: Only 12 days until we leave for Thanksgiving in Baltimore! We’re going to spend the holiday with The Bergey’s. Tim & Dani, Steve & Cassidy, and Ben (who has been away at college) will all be there too. I haven’t seen everyone in over a year or maybe longer.

Down: I smashed my wrist against the door frame a couple of months ago and it appears that I now have a cyst where the deep bruise was. I guess this means I need to make an appointment with my doctor and bring in my list of ailments. Good grief I sound old.

Up: Once Upon a Time, Snow White & The Huntsman, Merlin, and Game of Thrones have all sent me flailing deliciously back into World of Warcraft. The fantasy, fairy-tales, and beauty of it all. Ahh, the long winter nights ahead will be filled with such dreaminess. Hot chocolate and gaming!

Down: My hair is driving me crazy. I started shouting out ideas the other evening. “Dreadlocks! Zooey Deschanel bangs! Blue!” I need a change and if I don’t get one soon I’m going to start hacking away with scissors. And we really don’t want that to happen.

Another Down: The Frustrated Neighbor downstairs. He apparently doesn’t have kids or understand that apartment-dwelling isn’t perfect. I’m constantly making sure Drew isn’t running or thumping but sometimes noise happens and I can’t prevent it. The other evening we came into the apartment and Drew had a FIT within seconds. He stomped four very loud, hard, and stern thumps across the floor to the couch and IMMEDIATELY there was Ceiling Thumping from the Grumpster downstairs. It was as though our neighbor was waiting with a cane or something. Drew, of course, flailed and started asking if the police were going to take him to jail. It’s happened a few other times too and I even tried going downstairs to talk to him. I was going to apologize for the noise and explain that I can’t always stop it before it happens but that we try very carefully to be quiet neighbors. But the dork wouldn’t open the door.

Sort of Down: Drew has crossed the magic 40 lb mark. This is a “down” because whoa – kids grow so fast. This also means researching which booster seat is best.

Up: IT’S THE WEEKEND.

the nooks and crannies.

November 7th, 2011

I took Octolilly off of private-view only because I think I’m finally done dusting out the archives, messing with the CSS, and trying my best to correct some serious errors with this theme.

You may need to re-subscribe to my RSS feed (I had deleted my feed while importing past entries so you wouldn’t get a ton of 2003 college drama flooding into your Reader) or perhaps everything will update better than I expect.

If you have suggestions or find an error, let me know.

A few things:

– You can’t comment on any posts older than 30 days so if you start reading in the Archives and want to add something, you can email me your thoughts or talk to me on Formspring.

– It’s pretty obvious that I don’t have ALL my posts that I’ve ever written. But I’ve spent a lot of time searching on archive.org and pouring through my old laptops and I’ve found the bulk of everything.

Happy November, and here we go!

newsletter: month fifty-five.

November 6th, 2011

Drew,

It’s been a really long time since I’ve written you a newsletter. I stopped writing for awhile so I could just focus on living. It was a nice break but it’s Autumn now and seeing as I always come out of my shell at this time of year, I’ll take this creative stirring as a hint that I should embrace writing regularly again.

You are four and a half now! You think big thoughts, dream big dreams, and have loads more energy than your father and I combined.

We just had a lovely Halloween that undid a bit of our STRANGER DANGER enforcing. Up until now, you’ve been wary of strangers. But at some point on Halloween night, as you skipped down a road lit with ghostly pumpkins, you declared, “now that everyone knows me, they are ALL MY FRIENDS!”

happy halloween 2011

You were still nervous about actually having to say “trick or treat” or even “thank you” but the minute that I talked to the stranger, I’d hear a tiny four year old voice behind me rattle off a bit of useless information.

Me: Happy Halloween! We have a nervous space rocket with us this evening.
Stranger: Hi! Welcome! Here’s some candy!
Drew, in a monotone voice: weparkedthecardowntheroadandisawlotsofkidsrunningaround.

So now we are back to smiling pleasantly at the people around us and not shrieking OH HEY YOU HEEEYYYYYY to everyone we see. At least you are past your phase wherein you shouted “PEOPLE!!” each time we went to the grocery store.

You see the world in black and white. If we’ve established rules on a certain subject, you become unbearable to be around if we deviate from the norm. “NO. THIS IS THE WAY WE DO IT. I DO NOT THINK YOU ARE RIGHT.” Your daddy and I chuckle, because you are just like him.

You also have a problem with anger, though. When you are really, really fussy – you shake a little, clench your fists, and grit your teeth. And darling, you get this from me. All your pillow-punching and shrieking breaks my heart because I know EXACTLY how you feel when you get frustrated. You are learning coping mechanisms. Soft things help calm us down. Classical music soothes. Warm baths comfort. And lying in bed and snuggling while we cry always makes us feel less lonely.

But being four and a half hasn’t just held tantrums! We’ve also watched you blossom as you learn about everything. You are still most certainly fascinated with machines, wheels, and HOW everything works. And for the first time ever, you realized that there was a time when you weren’t with us and your chin quivered as you said, “but I missed you so much when I wasn’t here.”

You are awesome, sweetie. I am proud of you and I love you so much. There is so much world out there for you to discover and I can’t wait to see your eyes sparkle as you realize there is even MORE to learn. Here’s to the next bit of discovery!

P.S. We’re still chronicling the funny things you say on bouncydrew.